Friday, December 3, 2010
Day 3 :(
Well, today is day 3 of testing.
It's also the day that everyone goes home.
The house will feel completely empty without everyone here tomorrow morning. I will wake up with the children, and wait for my amazing friends to wake up. First I'll wait for C to wake up to use the washroom at around 9am, which has been around the time he goes. And then I'll wait for T to get up and come sit on the couch and wonder what the heck we're doing for the day.
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it all yet. I know for sure I'm going to cry... as I already am and they only leave in 10 hours. I have 10 hours - 10 precious hours until they leave to go over the Atlantic Ocean to go back home. I offered to keep them here forever, but of course, C has to go back to work on Tuesday, so that kind of crashed the idea. It's definitely more than a little sad, and I truly wish they could stay in Bathurst for another 100 years.
I haven't tested YET, but I'm on my way over right now. I will keep the blog open of course, but it's wayy too early to expect anything for another 4-6 days for sure. I should start to take pictures of them, but my camera is soo blurry for the pictures [I'm asking for a camera from hubby for my birthday *HINT HINT JOSH!* Peeeee time. Be right back.
So, of course, it's still negative. I'm going to start to get excited about a possible positive in about 3 days when there's actually a chance. See, it usually take the egg about a week just to make it into the uterus, and then it has to bury into the uterine lining. This is why most women don't get a + pregnancy test until around the day their period would show up. So, no excitement really until 6dpo and then no panic for a - until 12dpo. I won't stop testing until 15dpo.
Well, three days down.
Anyone have a super sensitive ultrasound machine to lend me so that I can track their embies? If you do, just drop it off for the next week please. THANK YOU!
Cathleen
It's also the day that everyone goes home.
The house will feel completely empty without everyone here tomorrow morning. I will wake up with the children, and wait for my amazing friends to wake up. First I'll wait for C to wake up to use the washroom at around 9am, which has been around the time he goes. And then I'll wait for T to get up and come sit on the couch and wonder what the heck we're doing for the day.
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it all yet. I know for sure I'm going to cry... as I already am and they only leave in 10 hours. I have 10 hours - 10 precious hours until they leave to go over the Atlantic Ocean to go back home. I offered to keep them here forever, but of course, C has to go back to work on Tuesday, so that kind of crashed the idea. It's definitely more than a little sad, and I truly wish they could stay in Bathurst for another 100 years.
I haven't tested YET, but I'm on my way over right now. I will keep the blog open of course, but it's wayy too early to expect anything for another 4-6 days for sure. I should start to take pictures of them, but my camera is soo blurry for the pictures [I'm asking for a camera from hubby for my birthday *HINT HINT JOSH!* Peeeee time. Be right back.
So, of course, it's still negative. I'm going to start to get excited about a possible positive in about 3 days when there's actually a chance. See, it usually take the egg about a week just to make it into the uterus, and then it has to bury into the uterine lining. This is why most women don't get a + pregnancy test until around the day their period would show up. So, no excitement really until 6dpo and then no panic for a - until 12dpo. I won't stop testing until 15dpo.
Well, three days down.
Anyone have a super sensitive ultrasound machine to lend me so that I can track their embies? If you do, just drop it off for the next week please. THANK YOU!
Cathleen
Thursday, December 2, 2010
LET THE TESTING BEGIN!
Okay, so... I know I'm crazy... so, and I'm expecting you all to say so haha
I'm testing already. Actually, in all honesty, I started to test YESTERDAY.
My tests measure at 10mui/ml, so I'm hoping in a few days we'll see something. At low testing measurement like that, maybe by 7dpo we'll see something! Most people don't test until at least 10dpo, but my IM got me these amazing tests, [100 of them] so I want to show my gratitude by using them!
So, if I can hold my pee for 6 hours at any given time, I'm going to POAS.
Share your stories, what's the earliest you've ever gotten a +?
Cathleen
I'm testing already. Actually, in all honesty, I started to test YESTERDAY.
My tests measure at 10mui/ml, so I'm hoping in a few days we'll see something. At low testing measurement like that, maybe by 7dpo we'll see something! Most people don't test until at least 10dpo, but my IM got me these amazing tests, [100 of them] so I want to show my gratitude by using them!
So, if I can hold my pee for 6 hours at any given time, I'm going to POAS.
Share your stories, what's the earliest you've ever gotten a +?
Cathleen
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
And... OUCHIES
I woke up with the baby at about 530am [he's teething again, so for the next week, it'll be hell on wheels], and I felt some ovary discomfort, just like pinching, in both sides. So this morning I'm not feeling well, but that's okay. I'm thinking about going over to subway for breakfast, I definitely have to go do some groceries and get my christmas shopping done. I also have to print a few pictures out at walmart, that is, I'm going to go online and send my pictures over from my computer lol
That's part of my IPs present too, so I need to take more pictures to send hahahahaha
Unfortunately, my camera card sucks out loud so I may have to steal their camera to take the pictures! GRR! LOL
Does anyone have any ideas for how to tell my IPs if we get a + test?
That's part of my IPs present too, so I need to take more pictures to send hahahahaha
Unfortunately, my camera card sucks out loud so I may have to steal their camera to take the pictures! GRR! LOL
Does anyone have any ideas for how to tell my IPs if we get a + test?
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Positive Ovulation Test... Again?
BAHAHAHAHA Don't know what the heck is going on, but yesterday they were - again, and today....
The first line is the control line and the second one is the TEST line... YAY! I don't know what's going on... but I'll take it! We're both jumping around, the guys are out running errands, and I don't know why I even tested, but I did. Soooo, I guess my IF will be sore by the time I'm done with him!! bahahahahahaha.
YAY
Monday, November 29, 2010
When Not To Assume
I had to post this today. I know I try to express my feelings as much as I can to you so that you can understand what it is like to be a surrogate.
Well, I had been speaking to an amazing same sex couple only 5.5 hours away from me, which is the closest I've even encountered who were searching for a traditional surrogate. I hadn't had contact with them for a few weeks, and seeing as how they were so perfect, I figured they had found someone and didn't know how to tell me.
I was wrong.
They had simply taken time out, away from it all. I got a message asking me what was new from them, honestly quite surprised to hear from them. As you can imagine, they were quite upset with me. I asked them to read my blog, and as soon as they had, they had messaged me. I felt absolutely horrible. I was crying. Like I had let a close friend down. Broken a promise. Tattled on a friend to whom had kept secrets for you in the past.
This world is filled with both glorious and horrendous surprises... this was not one of those glorious ones. I was fully expecting them to tell me that they had been matched and writing up contracts. I'm not only in shock, but in despair, for they are truly a great couple. I'm sad that this has happened, truly, and I hope that this does not happen to anyone else. It is quite heart breaking to know that you've completely shattered a couple's heart. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to call them or message them when/if I become available in all honesty, since I don't know if they even ever want to talk to me again.
If they decide to read this.. all I can say is that I'm so sorry... although, I know that will never help what I've done and I can only pray that it even makes a difference. They are definitely a couple I would want to work with, and I have to tell everyone, if you're a surrogate, these guys would be absolutely wonderful. I'm just sorry I won't be working with them.
Cathleen
Well, I had been speaking to an amazing same sex couple only 5.5 hours away from me, which is the closest I've even encountered who were searching for a traditional surrogate. I hadn't had contact with them for a few weeks, and seeing as how they were so perfect, I figured they had found someone and didn't know how to tell me.
I was wrong.
They had simply taken time out, away from it all. I got a message asking me what was new from them, honestly quite surprised to hear from them. As you can imagine, they were quite upset with me. I asked them to read my blog, and as soon as they had, they had messaged me. I felt absolutely horrible. I was crying. Like I had let a close friend down. Broken a promise. Tattled on a friend to whom had kept secrets for you in the past.
This world is filled with both glorious and horrendous surprises... this was not one of those glorious ones. I was fully expecting them to tell me that they had been matched and writing up contracts. I'm not only in shock, but in despair, for they are truly a great couple. I'm sad that this has happened, truly, and I hope that this does not happen to anyone else. It is quite heart breaking to know that you've completely shattered a couple's heart. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to call them or message them when/if I become available in all honesty, since I don't know if they even ever want to talk to me again.
If they decide to read this.. all I can say is that I'm so sorry... although, I know that will never help what I've done and I can only pray that it even makes a difference. They are definitely a couple I would want to work with, and I have to tell everyone, if you're a surrogate, these guys would be absolutely wonderful. I'm just sorry I won't be working with them.
Cathleen
OFFICIALLY
IN THE TWO WEEK WAIT!
Yes... that's right. We're not just waiting to test. okay, that's a lie... There will be no waiting because everyone who knows me knows that I don't wait... I wait 5 days... and only because 6dpo is the absolute earliest time you can get a +. Other than that, I would be testing - now.
Okay.. so I will admit that the insems aren't my favorite part of surrogacy. BUT... they get me to this point, where I get to blog and tell you that there are now 13.5 days until we should get a +. Yep... in 13.5 short days, I could be on here telling you all that I'm knocked up and ready to bloat. LOL
Hopefully in 2 weeks you'll start to get belly pictures and then I can start scanning stuff to show you!!
Anyone who's ever tried to get pregnant knows that this time of the wait SUCKS. NO ONE likes the 2WW. The reason being that it's soooooooooooooo long.
I am now laying here after having done the insems for the second time. LOL Yeah... all women know what I'm feeling right now [ew]. LOL Yep... that's right. So home insems aren't that glorious. lol They aren't, but they can be much more intimate .. that sounds wrong, but I mean with your IPs. You're not working with doctors and machines but rather with people and feelings. Isn't that what surrogacy is all about? I understand that some surros do IUI because it increases the chances of conception. I like it this way to be honest, with all the real feeling and emotion.
Alright... SOOOOOO. LOL I will shortly be on with tests bahahahahah I have ovr 50 tests ready [thank goodness] and I'm ready to start to take them!! I feel like I should be testing tomorrow! LOL I'm going to start testing in five days, even though the chances are minimal.. I have tests that measure at 10mui/ml... so they will be the earliest to pick it up. woohoo!
HAVE A GREAT DAY.
Cathleen
Yes... that's right. We're not just waiting to test. okay, that's a lie... There will be no waiting because everyone who knows me knows that I don't wait... I wait 5 days... and only because 6dpo is the absolute earliest time you can get a +. Other than that, I would be testing - now.
Okay.. so I will admit that the insems aren't my favorite part of surrogacy. BUT... they get me to this point, where I get to blog and tell you that there are now 13.5 days until we should get a +. Yep... in 13.5 short days, I could be on here telling you all that I'm knocked up and ready to bloat. LOL
Hopefully in 2 weeks you'll start to get belly pictures and then I can start scanning stuff to show you!!
Anyone who's ever tried to get pregnant knows that this time of the wait SUCKS. NO ONE likes the 2WW. The reason being that it's soooooooooooooo long.
I am now laying here after having done the insems for the second time. LOL Yeah... all women know what I'm feeling right now [ew]. LOL Yep... that's right. So home insems aren't that glorious. lol They aren't, but they can be much more intimate .. that sounds wrong, but I mean with your IPs. You're not working with doctors and machines but rather with people and feelings. Isn't that what surrogacy is all about? I understand that some surros do IUI because it increases the chances of conception. I like it this way to be honest, with all the real feeling and emotion.
Alright... SOOOOOO. LOL I will shortly be on with tests bahahahahah I have ovr 50 tests ready [thank goodness] and I'm ready to start to take them!! I feel like I should be testing tomorrow! LOL I'm going to start testing in five days, even though the chances are minimal.. I have tests that measure at 10mui/ml... so they will be the earliest to pick it up. woohoo!
HAVE A GREAT DAY.
Cathleen
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