**EDITED AND REMOVED**
Do NOT be too shy to say it as it is in my comment box, as I have never declined a comment on my blog, whether it was good or bad. I know that I put myself in this siutaion and I know that it is my own fault that I am sitting here completely shattered. I have a very close friend who made sure that I knew that I am not fault free in this situation, and I love her for it, she is right. I wanted to WARN others to NOT put themselves in this situation, make sure your expenses are covered in this line of work.
I try to speak more about myself in this blogs than others.
I had to make an exception today though, although, I won't make it obvious who I'm speaking of, and I have never spoken about this person, so that helps in keeping it anonymous.
The group that banned for and accused me of threatening to abort the babies kept a few of the people that I had added, and also, people that I knew.
One of them posted that she had told me that this would all happen [and, who could have seen this all happening, I'm sure my IP's and I didn't even have any way of knowing how things would roll out] and had warned me but I didn't listen. I thought that was a bit immature, after the beating they had given me. I have a few friends still in that group, so word was going to get back to me -obviously-.
Surrogacy is SUPPOSED to be a very beautiful thing, in some cases, it can be very stressful and it can be very tiring. I don't want this to stop anyone from going into surrogacy, as I'm sure my next journey [if I can even carry again] will be just as beautiful as I had hoped, and that my IP's will be overly understanding of what has happened in this journey, as there are also unexpected things that happen in surrogacy, most good, but there has to be some give in the situation of giving life, and two families merging.
This CAN be a wonderful thing for both parties, as most surrogates get many places with the money they make. I can change lives on both sides of the field if it is given the opportunity. It is not always easy. But it should have benefits for both sides.
I hope my blogs to follow are full of happiness, encouragement and good news. I will be removing my previous blog as I don't feel as though it gives this situation any justice at all. It has gone beyond what I had ever thought it would.
I never wanted to live with regret, and I hope that regret somehow leads to something better. only 20w4d until I reach full term with the twins. Here is to hoping they are better and full of rainbows and love and sunshine!