Well, I'm not going to lie. The last week has been... hectic, overwhelming and stressful. HOWEVER, I've learned to organize myself, cope better and find myself a bit as well, so I think it evens out.
My fiance moved out March 3rd. For those who know me... I keep to myself a lot. I don't honestly have friends who come over for play dates, and I don't go out for playdates. I don't have suppers, and don't get invited to them. My first little bit of excitement, is a birthday party for a 4 year old this weekend. What the heck do you buy a 4 year old? lol I knew one day, I would have birthday parties, it comes with the mommy status. What I DIDN'T do.. is my research on age appropriate gifts.
Today, I had a welfare representative... pop by... at 930am. Wonder if he noticed my bralessness? haha I felt at the time, that it was definitely an invasion of privacy for sure... and I was upset. However... how could I have prepared any differently other than cleaning my darn house? I was still the same person I would have been, I had the same explanation and information I would have had. My children were both fed, clothed and fairly happy. Sometimes, we need to just say "oh well!" and move on. I'm trying to do that more often. I think we all should.
Okay. So, our OBS was FIRST on the dock, but I like to show you guys a window into my personal life. I'm not just a surrogate, I am a mommy and a person as well. I have struggles just like you all, and I hope that my bluntness doesn't put anyone off... this is what you get sometimes, just me.
The date of our OBS was March 11th. As all appointments, I got my stats, but it started off with me explaining my situation to my nurse, who is also my ... well... Josh's cousin through marriage. She knows how young we were, but didn't now about the ADHD or him not being medicated as a child. I explained that to her, and that, we are trying to work on things, slowly, and effectively, in order to build an adult relationship that started from friendship as teenagers.
Here are the stats
Weight: 111.5 - 2 lbs lost in a week
Blood Pressure: 110/60 -my regular blood pressure
Pulse: scattered. It was taken, at 146 beats per minute and then five minutes later, 102 beats per minute. Just my thyroid trying to even things out.
Blood Test Results
Previous Thyroid Count: 30
Current Thyroid Count: 15
This all means... a lot. Start with weight gain. It's certainly not great. We won't worry until our next appointment though. No reason to worry, if there is nothing to worry about yet :) We were 16w6d, and it wasn't necessary to gain a whole lot anyway yet. The only concern he has is that with my thyroid slowing DOWN, my metabolism should be as well ... making it hard to NOT gain weight now.
Blood test results, mean that I went from being in a very dangerous place, to now being considered safe. That means... so much. I am down to 1 tapazole 5mg a day, which also means I can slow down on my morning sickness pills since I will suffer less side effects. It also means, that we are trying to keep it controlled, not bringing those levels down anymore. It also means, that they don't have to up my dosage, which means less side effects or chances for long term side effects. This is great.
He did the doppler thing, which is always exciting. He couldn't find Baby B though, and I think he was honestly very concerned [he told me later that he was a little concerned, but the way he rushed me to the ultrasound machine... he was a bit more than a little concerned I think haha]. So, yes, we got an ultrasound. Which is good. I was pleased to be honest. With twins, a lot of the time, you do need an ultrasound to get the heartbeats because there is a whole lot of extras in there. Baby A, on teh bottom, and head down [for now] had a healthy heartbeat of 180. Baby B, much higher up, and still transverse, had a lovely heartbeat of 140. They let me take a video for the parents, they were very pleased to see them! We didn't get pictures though, as the quality was low, and he couldn't measure them for the same reason.
I have a time for our 20 week ultrasound. March 29th, 2011 at 12:45 Atlantic time. So very exciting.
SECOND PART
Holy crap, we made it to 17 weeks, with both babies healthy and still growing. I feel... huge, and I'm not. lol I'm just "big" for 17 weeks. Wanna see? If you don't... I'm sorry... I like to share haha
My fiance moved out March 3rd. For those who know me... I keep to myself a lot. I don't honestly have friends who come over for play dates, and I don't go out for playdates. I don't have suppers, and don't get invited to them. My first little bit of excitement, is a birthday party for a 4 year old this weekend. What the heck do you buy a 4 year old? lol I knew one day, I would have birthday parties, it comes with the mommy status. What I DIDN'T do.. is my research on age appropriate gifts.
Today, I had a welfare representative... pop by... at 930am. Wonder if he noticed my bralessness? haha I felt at the time, that it was definitely an invasion of privacy for sure... and I was upset. However... how could I have prepared any differently other than cleaning my darn house? I was still the same person I would have been, I had the same explanation and information I would have had. My children were both fed, clothed and fairly happy. Sometimes, we need to just say "oh well!" and move on. I'm trying to do that more often. I think we all should.
Okay. So, our OBS was FIRST on the dock, but I like to show you guys a window into my personal life. I'm not just a surrogate, I am a mommy and a person as well. I have struggles just like you all, and I hope that my bluntness doesn't put anyone off... this is what you get sometimes, just me.
The date of our OBS was March 11th. As all appointments, I got my stats, but it started off with me explaining my situation to my nurse, who is also my ... well... Josh's cousin through marriage. She knows how young we were, but didn't now about the ADHD or him not being medicated as a child. I explained that to her, and that, we are trying to work on things, slowly, and effectively, in order to build an adult relationship that started from friendship as teenagers.
Here are the stats
Weight: 111.5 - 2 lbs lost in a week
Blood Pressure: 110/60 -my regular blood pressure
Pulse: scattered. It was taken, at 146 beats per minute and then five minutes later, 102 beats per minute. Just my thyroid trying to even things out.
Blood Test Results
Previous Thyroid Count: 30
Current Thyroid Count: 15
This all means... a lot. Start with weight gain. It's certainly not great. We won't worry until our next appointment though. No reason to worry, if there is nothing to worry about yet :) We were 16w6d, and it wasn't necessary to gain a whole lot anyway yet. The only concern he has is that with my thyroid slowing DOWN, my metabolism should be as well ... making it hard to NOT gain weight now.
Blood test results, mean that I went from being in a very dangerous place, to now being considered safe. That means... so much. I am down to 1 tapazole 5mg a day, which also means I can slow down on my morning sickness pills since I will suffer less side effects. It also means, that we are trying to keep it controlled, not bringing those levels down anymore. It also means, that they don't have to up my dosage, which means less side effects or chances for long term side effects. This is great.
He did the doppler thing, which is always exciting. He couldn't find Baby B though, and I think he was honestly very concerned [he told me later that he was a little concerned, but the way he rushed me to the ultrasound machine... he was a bit more than a little concerned I think haha]. So, yes, we got an ultrasound. Which is good. I was pleased to be honest. With twins, a lot of the time, you do need an ultrasound to get the heartbeats because there is a whole lot of extras in there. Baby A, on teh bottom, and head down [for now] had a healthy heartbeat of 180. Baby B, much higher up, and still transverse, had a lovely heartbeat of 140. They let me take a video for the parents, they were very pleased to see them! We didn't get pictures though, as the quality was low, and he couldn't measure them for the same reason.
I have a time for our 20 week ultrasound. March 29th, 2011 at 12:45 Atlantic time. So very exciting.
SECOND PART
Holy crap, we made it to 17 weeks, with both babies healthy and still growing. I feel... huge, and I'm not. lol I'm just "big" for 17 weeks. Wanna see? If you don't... I'm sorry... I like to share haha
I always apologize for my camera... I do keep setting it, honestly, but it seems to have a mind of it's own! I also realize that I keep changing the way I'm facing lol That's not very helpful I'm sure LOL I'm going to start taking them all facing the dor way, sorry about that, I never realize it when I'm doing it, I usualy take them super fast.
I know this has been a long post, and I have more to talk about and to ask you all about, so I'll make another post tomorrow maybe? I'm sorry it's been so long since my last post... I know that I wanted to keep posting as often as I had something to talk about, but I'm sure you all can understand how deep I am in my own stuff rigth now. Thank you to everyone who is supporting me through messages and just checking in. It means a LOT to me. You have no idea.
I have a quote here for you all though, I hope you like it.
«Our true wealth is the good we do in this world. None of us has faith unless we desire for our neighbors what we desire for ...ourselves.» — Mohammed
I think we all strive to be better people, to improve on our past mistakes. I don't doubt that. Every day, we can make a difference, in our lives, our children's lives and our neighbor's lives. A simple gester of thanks, friendship, love or appreciation can change someone's day. Just remembering to say thank you to everyone, makes a difference. I was hospitalized during my last pregnancy, and one day, the janitor came in, and asked if I would like to have my floors washed. I said yes, it would be great, and before he left, I said "Excuse me.." and he thought he missed a place. I continued at the puzzle I seen forming on his face, "Thank you, I really like getting out of bed to a clean floor." He told me that not many people thanked him, that it was just his job. Sometimes we forget to appreciate the little things in life. Even if it's just a snow removal man, a janitor, a social services worker... without these people, we would be lost. They do the jobs that no one else wants to do. They deal with the hardest jobs there is, the least appreciated jobs. Josh works in an old folks home... and I know he has rough days, he's come home and asked to not change diapers that day.. he had just been up all night doing so. He comes home GLOWING when a family member thanks him, or the patients thank him. Please remember that, I know we can get rushed, and we just forget. Let's all try to take a few moments, because that's all it takes, to stop, and thank someone for what they do for us, or the people we love.
Thank you all for reading these, Lent just started for those who are religious. Lent is personal, it is a personal sacrifice me make. Most people give up fast food, junk food... I've decided a few years ago, that instead, I would make a point to be more proactive. More specifically, I would do things around the house that I would not normally do daily, but would improve our lives. I'm not extremely religious, I do pray before bed if I don't pass out as soon as I get in bed, for those who aren't... it is a choice, just like everything else, but I feel safer, believing in something greater than us. If there is no heaven, and it IS all a big scam from the Catholic Church, I have improved my own life, and the lives around me through the belief that there is something beyond this life. We are on this planet for a limited time, why not have faith in something that makes me feel safe, encourages me to help others... right?
I hope you all have a great day/night.
Follow me if you aren't already, it's an ego boost haha
-Cathleen
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