Cycle Day 34 17-18 DPO

Okay so.

This is my first cycle OFF of birth control after being ON it for like 10 months, so I'll give my body a break. I am getting a bit frustrated (a lot?) though.

My IP's are off from July 9th to 22 so ovulation needs to fall in there or they will have to take time off of work. As of right now my cycle will actually be perfect for that time if next month is like this one (and my cycle after that).

So...now we wait!


Contracts!!

The contracts are DONE!!!
We should be signing it this week and that will also be out of the way! yay! 

It is 28 (twenty EIGHT!) pages long. Yes. 28. I'm not kidding. It's pretty much a book honestly, and I've seen lines for movies be shorter. 

I'm just happy they're finally done! 

Plans a brewin'!

So there is finally a plan of action.

I am tracking my cycle again this month *sigh*, and next cycle we will be trying to make a baby for my IP's!!

They are in the middle of the wild fires in Alberta right now and they don't think that there is a possibility of making it work this cycle at all (the cycle I am waiting to start that is). So our time line is about seven weeks until inseminations...which...is a life time away it seems lol

MATCHED!!!

Okay so I've been pretty horrible at keeping you guys updated. Agreed. Accepted.

Here are my excuses :

I didn't match until about 5 weeks ago, so it's pretty new and nothing before then was "absolute". I also didn't want to tell everyone about couples because...they have a right to privacy as well. I had spoken to a total of 9 couples, 6 of which I didn't match with because they didn't want someone far away from them. One couple I ran away from when they asked if I would be a traditional surrogate and...essentially be a prostitute. They were serious. I came to love one couple, they weren't far away at all and it seemed like everything would work out. The problem was, my other half and I realized that we didn't want to go through another three rounds of IVF the way it was last time. I was so miserable and in pain from allergic reactions. We ended up deciding to do another traditional surrogacy. A surro-friend of mine gave me the name of someone out in Alberta (we'll call her Claire, which is not her real name) who is happily married, they both have great careers and all that they are missing is children. she contacted her lawyer right away and...that's as far as we have gotten. No rough draft. After over four weeks. Yes I'm serious.
We moved at the end of last month and everything was SO hectic, between the kids having to switch schools and me trying to find a way to keep them at their old school for the year, and Gabriel's 6th birthday party, it's been CHAOS! 

I went off of my birth control when we matched, which just happened to be the last pack of my birth control pills anyway. 

I tracked last cycle (this cycle) with opk's and cervical mucous. I got my positive on day 15, so ovulation was day 16/17. I'm on cycle day 28 just waiting around for Aunty Flo to start and I will be tracking my next cycle with temp, cervical positiion, opk's and charting. I'm kind of excited, it's been a year and a half since I've tracked my cycles with so much detail.

With no contracts done...or even SEEN at this point, my next cycle won't be used either, but if nothing else I can track it and see if it's the same as the previous cycle so that we can make plans for it to all work and fall into place.

See? You didn't really miss that much!

I'll figure out how to post my daily tracking info once my period starts, which I'm feeling will be tomorrow (12/13dpo) since I've burst out into pimples, I have the runs (always comes with a period I swear) and I'm moody AF and want to eat all of the kids' school snacks.

We have Willow's first birthday party this weekend coming (four days until she is one!!) so there is so much going on. Then the kids are out for school in June. I was hoping to do inseminations before they were out of school for the summer since it's so much easier to find a babysitter when half of your team is in school all day, but it's not a big deal. We will make it work!

As always, feel free to comment with any questions you may have, I will answer them. 

Now...everyone send me period vibes so I can move on with tracking the next cycle haha

Surrogacy...Round 3! Weeeeee're Baaaaaaaack!

You did not misread the title of this blog. 

Yes, I am looking to start my THIRD journey as a surrogate!

So far, I have started birth control pills (I would like to say that I had my IUD removed, which would be true...but I had it removed from my rectum...I'll write more about that on another blog...long story short, I needed another form of birth control lol). 

I have looked at probably six profiles so far, either I just didn't feel any kind of connection, or, in most cases, I live too far away for them to be able to attend appointments so politely said that I wasn't a good match for them. I hope that they all find surrogates local to them so that they can have every experience possible. 

So, now we are giving our profile to a couple who lives in Australia, who have one child already and who want a sibling! 

Nothing else so far to update really. 

Comment with any questions though, as always I'm an open book!

Updates and new cycle and new ..everything

So as you can tell from the title of this blog, things haven't been great.

August 28th we had a negative beta. Negative negative negative.

As in...beta of 2. Progesterone was great though, it was 190.

We stopped meds and a period came August 31st.

Started estrogen again on September 1st.

Ultrasound September 17th, it went well. Really well. Lining at 10.

September 19th I had some spotting, then it picked up and then it turned into real bleeding. We had an ultrasound done on September 20th, the radiologist here said everything still looked fine, lining at 9.5mm.

The clinic still cancelled the transfer. I stopped meds.

Period started September 25th.

Started estrogen again September 26th.

Started PIO October 12th.

Transfer is booked October 16th at 1030am.

I think that's it for now. :) I got a heating pad for this cycle too, enough was enough! I was SO SO SO SO SO SO SO sore, not able to sleep through the pain even! I would roll over at night and it would feel like a giant pulled muscle. Just a fricken nightmare!!

I'm still trying to figure everything out for shots for when I go to Toronto, there's five hours in the morning where I am flying. The wait between flights is just enough time to get me from one port to the next. I may ask the clinic to take suppositories that day. Other than that, that's the only time I can't take my shots on time. I don't care if I have to do five suppositories, they're easier to explain while flying than a needle!

Speaking of shots, it's that time again, so I'll see you all later!

BETA TODAY!

So that may have been misleading.

I don't have my beta results BACK yet, but it's later on today.

I was getting very very very faint positives on my FRER tests, and then negatives.

And Negative again.

Well, I guess it's negative and I had my first chemical.

Or my stupid FRER tests are annoying and they were giving me evap lines early.

I cried for three days.

I took my last test before beta yesterday, as a farewell to the cycle. 

However.

This is the test.

Sooo. That being said.

I'm no longer dreading my beta test today!

I will update when I update :)

Gloomy While Testing

I hate the 2 weeks wait.

Hate is a strong word.

I strongly dislike the 2 week wait.

...Nope...I hate it.

I tested every day since 3 days past the 3 day transfer. Every day. All day.

Negative.

Negative.

7 days past a 3 day transfer, first morning urine, negative.

I gave up. I couldn't do another negative.

I felt the urge to test at supper time 7dp3dt, and there was a very very faint second line. This morning, darker line.

I get digis tomorrow, but it looks like I'M PREGNANT!!

My IF's are going to be daddies!!